Monday, November 12, 2007
Ironically my plans failed (as usual). Lets see:
Plan 1: 100th post to be left for my laopo's birthday. (failed)
Plan 2: To surprise my laopo on her birthday. (failed)
Plan 3: To be celebrate both laopo and laopo's laopo de birthday, properly. (failed!)
3 out of 3 plans failed.
Sometimes, I really wonder, who I really am. I cannot let people see my point of doing something, because I do not like to explain, nor do I like people to question me, to question me is to doubt my ablility, and it makes me feel stupidility inferior. I believe when something is done, it is in its result we see if we have done a good job or not.
Yet, people ask me what, why, where, when, who, how, and when I explain, it not only spoil the fun, I lose the reason to do it, because, there is nothing to expect out of it anymore. I hate people who do not trust. So what if I made a mistake? So what if its not as perfect as I want it to be? So what?!
Everyone makes mistake, I'm no god, and god isn't as perfect as well! Would anyone perfect create anything imperfect? Because, if he is so perfect, no matter how he tries, he can never create anything imperfect, simple because he is just too perfect. (If anyone buay song, please kindly refer to the Readers/Viewers section at the right hand side, read it carefully and make sure you understand.)
I just don't understand. What I've done are starting to show a little. Yes, what I do, nobody will approve, and nor will they admit even when the result shows. Besides, I understand that what I do usually would appear to be wrong initially. However, if the result is for good, and that I do not obtain it through any crooked ways, then, am I wrong?
I don't understand girls, complicated they are. I mean, they always say guys are jerks and guys are these and that, they say guys is the cause of lesbianism, have they ever thought of this:"Why are there gays?", or like "Being gay is against the law but lesbians." ? So? Now what? homosexual is wrong, but gay is wrong lesbian is right?
True some guys are jerks, but does that mean all guys are jerks? And when guys comment on girls, they get upset, then what about girls on guys? If our basic structure are the same (male and female) then why can girls treat guys as if they do not have feelings? I mean, come on, we are of the same basic structure, so if females feel things too, does that mean that despite being made up of the same structure, we are not as alive as females?
Who says that male must provide for female? Then male stuffs are much more expensive than females, but females spend more bucks than males, explain. Simple, high supply, high competition, high competition, low pricing. Likewise, since male stuffs are lower in supply, but demand is almost as high, competition is slightly lower, therefore higher pricing. However, ironically, females never have enough of anything (not like men have nothing to complain about). This is to speak of in general, and if you girls, ladies, women out there are offended, shall I say this "Slow down and think a little, do I not make sense? And I am fully aware that there are exceptionals. But in general, its like that..." If still not happy, please read Readers/Viewers section, and make sure you understand it clearly.
I do not have any issue with girls, ladies or women. Its just that I'm sick and tired of everything around me. I wouldn't be so sick of the world and life, since they are certainly beautiful, if not for mankind. What I am sick of is mankind, the human race, pathetically insignificant, yet classify and self-appoint themselves to be the highest intellect speices.
As time pass I began to hate myself more for being alive as human, homosapians. I feel somehow,some may think that I am a misogynist. Be assured, its not misogynist that I am, but I am slowly becoming or already a misanthrope. Hater of Mankind...
