Tuesday, October 30, 2007
it is me that i hate or my life which i hate? they say life doesn't suck if you do things right, well, at least its something like that...but i am not perfect am i? then how can i do everything right? and if i can't do everything right, then does that mean that my life gonna suck? i know that i've made mistakes. i know that people hate me. i wish and wished and wish, still wishing to be dead and gone. wishing to be erased from the surface of existence, yet again, perhaps, because i'm not erased, i try hard to exist...i do not know what i want. but i know, i do not want to hurt. no more. what can i do? what do i do? what must i do? what do i want to do? i dunno. deluded with questions, answers are none. where do i go? what is it that i really want? my life, it is mine, or is it? if its mine, then how can i not control, not know anything? i-am-lost. i can hear people saying, "hey you, ya you! over there! you know what? i wish you were dead, you are suppose to be anyways. ha-ha!" i'm alone. sometimes, i feel so, sometimes i know so. but everytime, i am so. i dunno what this post is about and why i'm writing this post. but i really dunno what to do anymore! maybe i ned help? i dunno.
you're my honey-bun, sugar-pop, pumpi-yum-kin,
your're my sweetie-pie.
you're my cuppie-cake and blob-skime-skime-pure,
the apple of my eye.
and i love you so,
and i want you know,
that i'll always be right here,
and i love to sing
this songs to you,
because you. are. so.
DEAR!
