Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i find myself missing more and more people.
ping ping mei mei is one for instance.
and dar dar and me drifting away liddat.
i dunno.
i'm scared.
o lvls already started.
and i screwed it.
i only got one option; tp.
but if i dun make where can i go?
SIC?
i dunno.
i really feel lost!
and i'm desperate to end my life.
its selfish.
i know.
but wht other choice do i have?
i feel so arghh!
i do really care
which is why i still hang on.
love..
its just l-o-v-e
or isit?
i guess,
i'm just tired.
and sorry dar dar.
i didn't mean to say wht i said
but often pple do and say things without thinking.
then they regret
sorry.
i didn't mean wht i actually said about you.
but, really!
i'm scared that i'll lose you,
coz i love.
perhaps,
pinky means more than i do.
i dunno.
just haiix.
forget it.
i will get pinky back.
and probably go away or something
i dunno.
as long as you are happy.
i am fine.
i'll get pinky back.
for she is of more value than i am of.
i understand now.
thanks.
the time spent.
everything.
they all stay with me.
and i really love you.
i'm tired.
i'm falling apart.
torn and withered.
i still love you.
i've seen myself on the deathbed.
i have none but the energy to whisper
"i love you" faintly.
i saw it clear.
crystal clear.
i dunno wht it means.
and i fear.
life...
its long,
but becuase of human greed,
its short.
and mine,
its of no difference.
sick and tired.
worn and dead.
i love you...
i still do..
